painless_hurt

Well this weekend has been awesome. I had my conference yesterday, bullshited the ENTIRE thing. After that I went to Jake's to Par-teh under adult supervision. Was teh awesome, cept I learned that I should really stop holding shit in cuz it comes out with vodka, I cried non-stop full out bawling for like a half hour, but I feel a shit load better it's amazing. Today at the carwash I watched Sean stumble about as he faught with the day long buzz. It was funny. I talked with Arne...a lot. We flirted ^^ it was like THE BEST EVAR. He touched my face trying to get powdered sugar off my cheek, I hugged him ^^, and we had a mini war break out every now and then that usually ended with both of us completely soaked and one of us running away. I broke my flip-flops twice and he fixed them both times, it was awesome. Eeeeeeee!!! I'm gunna ask him to prom. Dano told me to ask him out, but I'm so tired of asking ever guy I date out, I've never actually been like...asked out...cept with Dakota, but I started everything, or egged him on so yea. Anyways, Dano's been having one shit filled week, so tomorrow we're gunna buy icecream and drop it off at her house on Monday before school. I have a game tomrrow and I'm pretty Fekking excited!!

P.S.
I really should have worn sunscreen, I'm burnt all to Hell....whic mean I'll be having an over abundance of freckles -_- fekking Scottish geans

So this is my semi-unedited version...I got a bunch of notes last night, but Katie wanted to read it so here it is...


Prelude


Ever been on a bad acid trip and ended up dead? Well if you had you wouldn’t be answering that question now would you? A lovely young gentleman by the name of Noah had never once in his life tried drugs, but like any college student he was “experimenting”. Sadly his “experimenting” took a turn for the worse. Noah was offered acid, so being the open minded “I’ll try anything once” idiot he was, he gave it a shot. Noah wandered out of the safety of the dorm out on the streets. Dodging in and out of cars, and into another set of dorms across the road.

Suddenly he started screaming in rage. He knocked a door in and dragged out a poor girl from within. That’s where I come in. I’m a 23 year old law student by the name of Paul. I know real creative..blame my parents. Anyway, Noah started beating of the screaming girl. When he punched her in the throat she’d stopped moving and screaming ...she was pretty much dead. Sad thing really, but that’s when he started ripping at her flesh trying to make her bleed. I was frozen in shock. There was nothing really to do but pull him away from the body, but I couldn’t help but stare at his pure desperation to break the skin.

I had no idea what was going to happen next. His head jerked up, his neck cracked. He tilted his head sizing me up. With one quick, smooth movement he shot in my direction. Even as he charged towards me I had to admire his graceful movements. Why didn’t I run? I have no fucking clue, but look where it landed me. Noah leaped into the air and tackled me to the ground, like a starved beast who’d found an easy meal.

I believe this is the point where I actually started to move. At first he tried to gouge out my eyes, perhaps to make a “lovely” jelly for toast, who the Hell knows. Then when he found that in my desperation to survive I was just as strong as he, the youth bit me. Yes I said it. The Bastard bit me as hard as he could on the shoulder ripping out a hunk of clothing and flesh. I hope a mouth full of fabric was worth the effort at tearing at me and breaking a tooth. Now enraged I some how worked my legs under the intoxicated ninny and flipped him backwards. When I attempted to run my ass down the hall at full speed the campus security mistook me for him and shot me...in the chest...three times.

Now wouldn’t you call that unfair? Here I am bleeding heavily from the shoulder, clearly running for my life and I’m the one that gets shot. Well I guess I can’t be bitter forever, at least that’s what they keep telling me. Well I’m better off than Noah...for now anyways. Noah escaped the dorms and is now currently running around with a pack of hot headed demons. I, on the other hand am happily flying around undisturbed by the world. If only that were true. I, to my great displeasure am ramping around ill-equipped, reluctantly dragging around my trainee...Eric, and digging for any trace of unbalance.

I've lost track of what day I'm on. So Things are pretty awesome even tho my entire social scene has taken YET ANOTHER TURN *Teh Gasp* So Trevor and I broke up and I am offically staying the Hell out of the market for a Hell of a looooooooong time. I'm finally going to give myself a BREAK. DEAR GODS SHE'S SEEN THE FEKKING LIGHT!!! Oh yea I learned a new word from the book I just finished reading. I want to meet a sexy Irish Warrior-dude named Colin.

Well onto other news Spring break was pretty cool. I went through my clothes and did my LAUNDRY!!! Dun Dun Duuuuuuuuuun. I didn't quite finish cleaning my room.... actually I think it got a little worse o.0 HO NOES!! Tuesday I went with Jessie and Dano to bleach Sean's hair, then Thursday morning we did the deed and dyed his hair...wait for it...waaaait for it.....PURPLE!! OOOOOOOH MEH GAWD!!! Friday was the big Central trip. I have OFFICALLY fallen in Luuuuurv with Central. It's so Fekking awesome on SOOO many different ways!

P.S.
I heart Jeremy mucho mucho cuz he found a guy willing to be my field expert. Loves da Jeremy!!!

OH..MY..GODS.....

I win, I so win...I Totally and completely win. Megan Actually Wins!!! BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
WIN WIN WIN WIN WIN WIN WIN WIN WIN!!!!

*Victory dance my pants off*


P.S.
Still need to clean room

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
Okay...I feel better. Well today was quite eventful.

*I got shut down by Geyer for an extention.
*Watched a depressing film on immagration
*Watched another movie in History
*Skipped 6th (Sorry Kates...I couldn't fight off the temptation)
*Went to Seahurts
*Fell forward getting out of the car
*Fell backwards getting out of the car because my foot got caught on the seatbelt
*Watched Sean jump off a bridge
*Tripped on a log
*Watched Kiley fall in water
*Had very energetic rehearsal that made me "Uber-Fucking-Retarded"
*Screamed as loud as I could on the way home
*Found out I'm not only funny to Kates
*Went to Trevor's house where I sat on a razor and didn't notice until I stuck my hand on it
*Hit my head on a guitar
*Acted like a retard until my mum decided it was a good idea to ruin my mood by opening her stupid mouth

That's pretty much it...OH I checked out two cds, one the Soviet Army Chorus & and Band, the other is an eastern european rock group


P.S.
I reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeally need to clean my room!!!

Okay so I totally knew this was gunna happen. I was gunna forget and just stop...and well I did. So it's been about a month and a lot has happened. I made it into the play with Katie as her crazy slutty sister (in a seperate cast :( ) I've been working pretty hard on that and I'm about ready to start tearing my hair out because Ruth is a nightmare to wrap your head around and master her mood swings. I'm also having some trouble memorizing my lines. She may only pop in and out, but the scenes she's in the stupid whore never shuts up.

That's not all that's happened. I gave up on Dakota and moved on to some one who not only do I care about, but who actually cares about me. It also helps we've been friends for a while so it's not quite as awkward making the transition into a realtionship since we have something to build off of. I feel kind of bad tho cuz believe it or not I'm not much of a talker when I'm alone with some one so he sometimes thinks there's something wrong. I also think he believes that I'm keeping stuff from him because whenever he asks what I'm thinking most of the time I'm not really thinking anything, just focusing on same details of his face or his hand or whatever I happen to be looking at. Since I was little I've gotten in the habit of surpressing all thought, usually the only time I really think is when I'm by myself and that's one of the reasons I'm afraid to be alone...I'm afraid of remembering.

Well onto other things. I made a promise to Katie that I would stop skipping, and I've been pretty good about it. Whenever there's a temptation to skip usually something comes up to prevent me from skipping...I think it's fate...or Katie put a bind on me o.0 I've been also trying to get my grades up, but I haven't really been able to focus on anything longer than 5 minutes. It's like ever since I stopped wearing my glasses my freaking I.Q. has dropped dramatically.

Well that's all for now folks...I'm off to finish history and english homework...and whatever else that I can't remember...

OMG!!! I dunno, today was interesting...I'm not gunna say what happened, I'm just gunna post my lovely view on V-day

I've come to this conclusion with the help of Ayshia and Travis. Today is not for "love" It is a "holiday" devoted to the seven deadly sins. Yes ALL seven. Firstly you have people gorging themselves with chocolates and sweets and all that good stuff, that's Gluttony. Secondly, you have people wasting money and time buying "sentimental" gift and stupid stuff that usually ends up getting thrown out, and there you have sloth. Third, there are people bitching and crying over "not getting enough" and wanting more and more, there's Avarice or Greed. Next, there's all the skimpy ass outfits and people looking to "score", Lust! Following lust are all the people getting jealous of the flirting or sometimes even cheating, Envy. And Last, but certainly not least we have Wrath for all those who lash out at those who've betrayed them on such a "loving day" So there you have it...my take on Valentine's day.

Last night I went to the MOST AWESOME MOVIE EVAR!!!! With da Kates. So awesome, today I woke up at 1 to an empty house (horray -_-). I've been cleaning out of boredom and stuff like that. I'm really sleepy tho. I also had an emo moment with Cody...funness. I starting to think that I have way too many issues to have a functioning relationship. I need to find somebody as fucked up as I am. To those of you who may be reading this (Katie and Jeremy) sorry for all the emoness. ^^''''

well today kind of sucked. I found out a message I received was not from who it said it was, but infact my ex wo was assisted by that person's ex into hacking onto that person's account. Now I'm not quite sure what...inspires them to continue to torment the both of us concidering the reasons both realationships ended was because of them, not us. It just really not helping my stress level. Thankfully Cody was here to keep my mind off of it. I feel kind of stupid cuz I started bawling once he got here. I guess I just needed some one who could make me feel secure, and by that I mean some one who could beat the living Hell out of my ex. I really wish Dakota was able to come over at any point, I'd really rather go to him with all of this, but since he's so busy and can't really help anyone right now I don't want to bother him with this. I just...I dunno. Like I told Gabby, I'm so done with all of this. I'm done trying to be nice to people, concider the feelings of those who don't concider mine...I'm done. If y'all thought I was a bitch before, you have no idea how fucking bad it's gunna get.

Welcome to world of suck airlines I'll be your captain straight to HELL!!! OMFG!! I hate everything right now, especially me. Not only did I hit my head twice on the same object before I was smart enough to move it, I also broke my toe on a paint can then an hour later kick a case of pop with the same foot. Ya know, for a while things were going great, everyone was happy and I was happy and then it all fell the fuck apart. I'm so sick of it. Sometimes I think things would be better off if the planet just blew up. GAHHHHHHH!!!! Anyways...My head really hurts so I think I'll go to bed...maybe I'll die in my sleep. I'll post tomorrow, hopefully things would be as sucktastic.

Hola! well Kates I hope this makes you happys, I finally did it. Just so you know I'm never going to remember to do this everyday, and it'll probably only be maybe a paragraph long...if you're lucky. Well I guess I'll start off with current events. I just got back from the ddoctor's a little while ago and it is comfirmed I did give myself a concution...horray team. She also told me that I may be in pain for a couple days...dear Gods. So I may not be at school tomorrow, or I'll only be there for a while, like my last three classes, maybe.